The Personal History of David Copperfield – Armando Iannuci

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The Personal History of David Copperfield

Armando Iannuci

Genre: Comedy

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Release Date: August 28, 2020

Dev Patel leads an ensemble cast of talented stage and screen actors from across the world in this lavish, tongue-in-cheek reimagining from Searchlight Pictures of Charles Dickens’ classic story. After suffering through his earlier life as an impoverished orphan, things take an intriguing turn for David Copperfield (Patel) when he meets up with his outrageous, well-to-do aunt Betsey Trotwood (Tilda Swinton). Following a new trajectory, Copperfield embraces danger, treachery, romance, and ultimately the chance to shine as a writer in Victorian England. Directed by Armando Iannucci with a screenplay by Iannucci and Simon Blackwell based on Dickens’ novel, The Personal History of David Copperfield also stars Aneurin Barnard, Peter Capaldi, Morfydd Clark, Daisy May Cooper, Rosalind Eleazar, Hugh Laurie, Ben Whishaw and Paul Whitehouse.

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Saint Jhn On His Personal Music: ‘The Fractured Child Became A Whole Person’

Saint Jhn, the MTV Push artist for November, tells the story of his globetrotting upbringing and breaks down the personalo narrative behind his song ‘Sucks to Be You.’

Rebel Wilson, Lizzo and Adele’s personal fitness is just that. Personal.

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Billie Eilish Finds Her Personal Power On ‘My Future’

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HONESTLY a personal collection – EP

Clare Dunn

Genre: Country

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Release Date: June 12, 2020

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Business Success Is Rooted in Personal Mastery

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Selena Gomez struggles to cope with media exploitation of her personal issues

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Justin Bieber Is Back With Confessions, Personal and Musical

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Nicki Minaj Flew Out Personal Pastor For Private Wedding Ceremony

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Nicki Minaj is married, but we knew that already. Although the rapstress shared the news about her nuptials, details about the ceremony weren’t being revealed until now.

According to TMZ, kept things simple for their recent nuptials, Nicki made sure her pastor officiated the event. The outlet states that Pastor Lydia Woodson-Sloley from Brooklyn of the Life in Its Poetic Form Christian Ministries was asked to make her way to Los Angeles to wed the couple.

Pastor Lydia Woodson, who is noted as a poet, author, Christian life coach and music producer, has reportedly been a part of  Nicki’s faith walk for years. Nicki previously mentioned Pastor Lydia in 2015, during her 2015 MTV Video Music Awards appearance when she was on stage accepting the Best Hip-Hop Video win for “Anaconda”, before calling out Miley Cyrus over her rumored remarks about Minaj during an interview.

“You know who I want to thank tonight? My pastor Lydia. I love you so much,” Nicki said. “And now, back to this b*tch that had a lot to say about me in the press. Miley what’s good?”

Although it clear that Nicki is happy with her relationship, many fans are still giving Nicki’s new husband, Kenneth Petty, the side eye. After posting the news about her marriage on Instagram via a husband and wife ball cap and mugs, a few fans were upset reminding everyone of Petty’s past history of violence against women before shading the low brow announcement.

Although Nicki has addressed the concerns over her now husband’s checkered past, it didn’t help ease her fans pettiness when she debunked pregnancy rumors by posting via Instastory that although she’s legally married, she hasn’t received her ring.

“Ain’t pushin out his babies til he buy da [diamond emoji,]” Nicki Minaj wrote.

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“A deep personal loss” Pelosi on Cokie Roberts

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Kylie Jenner previews Travis Scott’s Netflix doc with a personal touch

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Gruden defends AB; calls helmet ‘personal’ issue

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The age of personal planes has arrived

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Walking Music – Bossa Nova Training Music for Walking and Running (Sport Music, Latin Songs and Brazilian Music – Walking Music Personal Fitness Trainer

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Walking Music Personal Fitness Trainer

Genre: Instrumental

Price: $ 9.99

Release Date: May 26, 2011

© ℗ 2011 Winter Hill Records

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Aviator Sunglasses and Combat Boots: How to Get Justin Theroux’s Personal Style

As one of the most stylish guys working in the business today, Men’s Journal January 2019 cover star Justin Theroux has put together his own signature look and personal style. From his perfectly tousled hair, to his relaxed but refined clothing options, and his functional footwear, Theroux knows what he likes, and he makes it work.

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First off, Theroux is a big fan of Aviator sunglasses. “I just like aviator sunglasses—they’re classic,” Theroux told Men’s Journal. “I also like glasses that are indestructible that you can throw in your front pocket.”

When it comes to footwear, Theroux likes to combine the functional the stylish with a pair of Common Projects combat boots, or if he’s dressing up for a night out, he’ll throw on a nice dress boot like a Yves Saint Laurent or Louis Vuitton. “A good pair of combat boots is always good to have; those suede Common Project boots are comfortable.”

As for the hair, it’s pretty simple for Theroux: “I get a haircut every couple weeks, I throw a little Shu Uemura, a hair paste in it, just run it through.”

How to Get Justin Theroux’s Tousled Hair and Beard Style

Find out more about Theroux’s personal style in the video above, you can read all about it and much more—like Theroux’s fitness routine—in our full profile in the January issue of Men’s Journal, on newsstands now.

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Westbrook on win in Portland: ‘It’s a personal thing for me’

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R.S.V.P. (Rare Songs, Very Personal) – Nancy Wilson

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R.S.V.P. (Rare Songs, Very Personal)

Nancy Wilson

Genre: Vocal Jazz

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Release Date: August 24, 2004

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Frank and Barbara Sinatra’s rare personal items go up for auction

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‘Kids Are Alright’ creator shifts ‘juice’ from political to the personal

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Some of Robin Williams’ personal items are up for auction

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Brock Boeser overcomes personal, family hardships to star for Canucks

The 21-year-old and his family have overcome a lot just to get here, as he looks to improve upon a breakout rookie season. – NHL

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Apple Will Allow Users To Download All Their Personal Data



Do you want to know exactly how much data Apple has collected from you? The company that Jobs built will now give you a chance to see it.

Due to Europe’s new GDPR  (General Data Protection Regulation) law going into effect on May 25, companies will now have to reveal or delete the personal data they hold if individuals demand so. Apple in compliance with the new law opened a new Data and Privacy site that will allow customers with accounts located in the European Union, Iceland, Liechtenstein, Norway and Switzerland to download all of their data the company has collected on them.

The data involved will revolve around your Apple ID account and your iPhone’s info plus any data that you have synced to through iCloud. You will also get your Apple Music and App Store activity plus any history with Apple Care included in that cache of data. Apple does warn not to expect all of that data to be readily available right away. If you are downloading content like iCloud file and photos, it could take up to a week to have that prepared for you. You do have the option to download the data in smaller chunks if need be.

You will also have to act quickly and download once it’s available because the data will be purged by Apple after two weeks. All of the information collected by Apple is, of course, voluntary but it is always good to know precisely what information they have and gives customers the ability to spot and correct errors.  Although its only available in Europe right now, Apple does plan to make the feature available to everyone soon.


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Personal Touch – Vincent Ingala

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Personal Touch

Vincent Ingala

Genre: Jazz

Price: $ 9.99

Release Date: May 4, 2018

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Episode 22: Trump’s personal attorney’s office raided by FBI


The FBI raided the office of Trump’s personal attorney and gives Trump a free pass to fire anyone associated with that decision.

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Under the Big Black Sun: A Personal History of L.A. Punk (Unabridged) – Tom DeSavia & John Doe

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Under the Big Black Sun: A Personal History of L.A. Punk (Unabridged)

Tom DeSavia & John Doe

Genre: Arts & Entertainment

Price: $ 23.95

Publish Date: April 26, 2016

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Teen Mom’s Tyler Baltierra Details Personal Struggles in Tearful Message

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Jay-Z’s ‘SNL’ Performance As Political Protest And Personal Redemption

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Up Close and Personal With the New iPhone X

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On ‘The Autobiography,’ Vic Mensa Faces His Personal Demons And Emerges Stronger

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Personal Shopper – Olivier Assayas

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Personal Shopper

Olivier Assayas

Genre: Drama

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Olivier Assayas, the internationally-acclaimed director of Clouds of Sils Maria and Summer Hours, returns with this ethereal and mysterious ghost story starring Kristen Stewart as a high-fashion personal shopper to the stars who is also a spiritual medium. Grieving the recent death of her twin brother, she haunts his Paris home, determined to make contact with him.

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Will Smith says “Concussion” is personal

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Why Meditation Is My Personal Hell

So recently, my pal Aaron sent out an email to our group of friends. I refer to this particular group as the puppy pile, as we’re rather like a lovingly misshapen and benign gang; we move, as it were, en masse.

Which is great for me — and specifically for my brain — since I actually kind of hate being alone. It’s all well and good if I wake up on a particular day and think to myself, Mmmm a jar of Nutella and my new sci-fi book is what I am about tonight! I take a long bath and pick at my face in the mirror. I reorganize weird cosmetics bags or sweep my floor of its carnivorous dust bunnies. I edit photographs and listen to the same 25 Ani DiFranco and Regina Spektor songs I’ve listened to since I was 15. If I want to be alone, I get weird with myself and generally keep busy.

It’s when I’m not planning on being alone that things start to get ugly. It is a combination of FOMO (a neurosis that Mindy Kaling lives as a brand) and the sad reality that I am simply badly wired. I’ll be making some coffee in the morning when my roommates have left for their respective jobs, and suddenly my brain starts firing off things like this:

Ouch! This water is hot, I nearly burned my damn hand. Man, burn victims. How awful, all that pain, all that scarring. What would it be like to become instantly and irrevocably mutilated? What is it like to see your best friend’s face burst into your hospital room, her face ashen. She instantly starts crying and saying she’s sorry. And you’re thinking, well, nobody’s more sorry than me. Will anybody even kiss me again?

And how crazy is it that someone right now — instead of curling up to read the news with coffee on an ugly (if exceedingly comfortable) sofa — is being beaten, raped, humiliated, heart-broken; shot with intravenous drugs; orgasming in throaty screams; divorcing their parents; adopting a son; floating in the Dead Sea; defying their ancestors; christened, slaughtered, worshipped, and denigrated.

The simultaneity of it all is truly staggering. I remember taking the Meyers Briggs’ personality test in high school with a best friend. It has a question along the lines of, “Do you stay up late at night and wonder what on earth you’re doing here? What the hell is it all about, Alfie?” My pal shook her head and said blithely, Nope! I was stunned. I truly thought everybody just bored their eyes into the ceiling and wondered about exactly that.

But 15 years later, I wish “nope” could be my answer. I tell myself: Quit asking questions that turn your threadbare tires in that 15-foot mud. Quit wondering about things that, by definition, you will never, ever, not in a million freakin’ years, know the answer to. Which leaves one in a perpetual state of anxiety and confusion. Which is a nasty place to be.

But do I listen? Nah. I’m not such great company.

So anyway, I get this email from my pal Aaron — who is a dedicated meditator and, in truth, just about the most gentle, calm-exuding human I’ve ever encountered. He invites all of us to go to Spirit Rock Meditation Center for a day-long “Beginner’s Guide to Mindfulness.” I eye the email. I scroll up and down. I nibble my nails a bit.

I begin to seriously consider going.

I happened to recently discover Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (which was actually developed for suicidal patients, as it helps you deal with how your thoughts violently trigger your emotions and vice versa), and it has a huge emphasis on being in the moment; it’s a decidedly Eastern-leaning paradigm.

My once ever-angry brother has gotten into meditating. My boyfriend — my fellow depressive extrovert — meditates. People just, like, can’t get enough of this cross-legged healing rite.

I’ve done yoga for years but use it as a means to stretch my body into satisfying shapes and sweat. I do not heal. I worry that my stomach is bulging out weird, that I am going to accidentally toot, that I’m pulling a hammy as we speak, and what am I going to eat after this? Even during Shavasana — sprawled and exhausted — my mind races.

In addition to Aaron, my roommate Hannah decides to go to the retreat, and I start to think, Maybe this will be good for you. It will be painful, you know that, to have to just sit and be in your brain for half-hour stretches, but you’re gonna do this thing. You’re going to have a revelation. Maybe somebody, someday, will describe you as calm-inducing! Be still my rat-racing heart.

We all meet up early Saturday morning. We laugh and chat on the drive up. We stare out the window and absent-mindedly sing to music. So far, this is my kind of Saturday!

We arrive and suddenly, I can feel anxiety roiling in my guts. Everyone is headed into this low-ceilinged wooden building; they’re taking off their shoes and smiling beatifically; they’re gathering pillows and mats and quaffing tea by the artisanal gulp-full. Me? I’m sweating. I’m stretching. I’m trying to talk and move as much as I humanly can while they give their introductory speech. I am sweeping my eyes across the crowded room — most people are swaddled in loose clothes and settling into metal chairs — and praying myself into a damn corn field.

I hear the leader — who is pleasantly droning about mindfulness — talk about being aware of everything that is transpiring right now; what your immediate experience is. We are to banish the future and relinquish the past. There is only now. The rug-fringe on your toes; the squeaking sounds of chairs; the air moving ever-so-slowly across your face. But most of all? Your breath.

In and out. In… two… three… out… two… three. Immediately my back starts to ache. I start to wiggle. I start thinking about those little weird bones in my back collapsing together. I feel an insatiable urge to start rolling my neck, twisting my spine back and forth.

I don’t. I decide to lie down instead. Immediately, I am sleepy. Am I going to pay $ 50 to sleep on this damn floor all day?! I open my eyes and look around. Everyone is a towering paragon of smooth-faced inner-staring. Hannah is wrapped in a beautiful red scarf; she is a tiny crimson mountain.

Thank God Aaron lies down next to me and seems to fall asleep. I feel less guilty, but no less sleepy. At least we’re both paying to sleep in public on a carpeted floor. Let it go. There’s like a hundred more rounds of this. Just fall asleep.

I do.

We wake up, and I feel abashed and groggy as we head outside for a moving meditation. They recommend a kind of pacing — a slow walk that traverses the same path. Pay attention to everything. The blades of grass. The tickle on your nose. The feeling of lifting your feet through space.

I start to panic. Everyone is walking everywhere outside, willy nilly. It’s like a Bangladesh intersection in slow motion. Everyone is wearing their gentle-face. I am wincing. I am trying to make eye contact with Hannah or Aaron; have they been body-snatched too?!

Finally I decide I should be alone. I wander to an adjacent construction site and pick a spot to stroll. I close my eyes and start walking in slow motion back and forth. Back and forth. I have fleeting moments of creeping euphoria. The sun, the sound of gravel. The dull hum of the machines. My chest rising and falling. I can feel the stones beneath my sneakers and I can smell dirt.

I’m a freakin’ Buddha.

We all head back inside for more sit-down meditation, during which I mostly compulsively think about my friend’s Pi party that night and resist the urge to bite my fingernails or poke Aaron next to me or write dirty limericks in my brain.

I am beginning to freak out.

Then we do an eating meditation. We’re all given raisins. We consider this wrinkled little fruit. We fondle it, we smell it. We roll it about in our palm. We think about every damn person and machine and bug that helped bring this tiny little treat into our palm. We bite it slowly. We savor the snap of its skin. I enjoy it thoroughly.

Then it’s time for lunch. THANK GOD! I practically want to rip my clothes off and rub my bare rump all over the Buddha statues (for sale) outside. I am positively giddy. And starving. And oh-so-keen for some human contact.

We all wander up a lovely knoll and share our snacks. I try to eat a carrot in slow motion; I try to smell the earth; I try to be deeply thankful to not be disfigured, lost, or forlorn. To be sitting on a hill in California eating organic chocolate and laughing with friends. But mostly I just feel guilty for being such a spoiled neurotic shithead that a day of contemplation is a kind of torture.

I feel my anxiety build as we head back into the room for our final meditation. I feel raw. I feel like I am sparring myself and losing. I lie down again. I feel my brain start to reel. I feel tears coming. I turn and see a woman who looks like my ex-boyfriend’s mother. I start to cry. Is everything I’ve done a mistake?! Will the past dig its claws into my soft bits till the day I die? I picture my mother’s face, rotting. I picture my brother and I — black-clad and staring at a freshly dug grave. I want him to take my hand. I want to bury my face in his shoulder and scream, but I can’t. Will I ever find a partner? Am I even a good person? What will it be like to be 84 with most of my friends dead? Are we all in purgatory?

I am literally just soaking the damn rug in hot frantic panicked tears when we finally are asked to come back into our bodies and do some debriefing. I gather myself into a sitting position and arrange my face in what I hope is a stoic shape denoting knowledge. People ask a few questions. And then a woman begins to share her revelation. That she was able to simply watch her thoughts go by, but not participate in them. It became a kind of humorous farce — oh, my my! Look at what my brain is up to! She was elated, she was articulate. She was changed.

Well la la la I am just so goddamn pleased for you. You’ve just touched the void and conquered the demons. Meanwhile, I’ve cast some sort of sinister spell which has conjured things the likes of which are tantamount to masochistic snuff films.

I’ve had a revelation too: I’m never going back there again.
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Life Coach Zachary Koval Discusses Finding Personal Acceptance Through His Queerness

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I’ve been conducting this series of interviews for over a year, primarily focusing on queer artists, but I realized that artists aren’t the only people whose work may be influenced or inspired by their queer identity. So I decided to open up my interviews and start talking to people with all kinds of jobs. With this in mind, I contacted Zachary Koval. He’s a busy man: He’s a personal trainer and life coach, primarily helping people with coming out or switching to a plant-based diet. We sat down to chat on a cold New York afternoon.

Phillip M. Miner: How long have you been out?

Zachary Koval: I came out to my parents in the eighth grade. After that it was a gradual process, from slowly telling friends to kissing a boy in the cafeteria my junior year. Both of my parents were very supportive. Personally becoming OK with my sexuality and not caring what other people thought was the biggest challenge. When I came out to my parents, I told them that I never wanted to talk about it again. I told friends and then ended up recanting the next day and jumping back in the closet. I think there’s a perception that coming out is a onetime event, but it’s definitely a continuum and process.

PM: Through some online research (aka Instagram stalking) I learned that you’re involved with the radical faeries. How did that influence your coming-out process?

ZK: I learned about the radical faeries from a high-school friend who connected with them after we graduated. They were something that really intrigued me — the freedom of expression, the connection to the spirit, the Earth, and to generations beyond my own. Exploring those things also completely terrified me. At that time, all that expression and sexuality wasn’t something I was comfortable with, but I still was attracted to the alternative way of being, outside the ever-present bar scene. It wasn’t until I moved to New York and met some friends who invited me to a large gathering in Tennessee for May Day that I finally got courage enough to go. Ever since, it’s been an amazing experience of learning about — and creating — myself. I’m seeing where I am and where I’m comfortable pushing past and growing. It’s not about conforming to what the mainstream says I should be or what I think that guy over there wants me to be. It’s been about finding, creating, and defining myself from the inside.

PM: I understand that. I naïvely thought that after I came out, that would be that and everything would be sorted. It’s been over a decade now, and I’m still figuring stuff out.

ZK: It’s definitely an interesting realization that we’re not done yet and probably will never be, but that’s the fun of it, I think. I went to a gay social boxing club called Velvet Gloves here in the city and found myself automatically self-correcting my stance and movements. The voice in my head was saying, “You’re standing very gay right now,” even as I was standing in a room full of gay men! I didn’t even realize I still had that kind of deep internalized self-shame! I like to think I’m completely comfortable with being gay, but there are still these pieces that have yet to be reconciled.

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PM: Does this sort of reconciliation happen in your life coaching?

ZK: Definitely. What’s really important to me is helping my clients find integrity in their lives and work to integrate all the different pieces of themselves. I think we have so many parts of ourselves: who we are at work, who we are with friends, and who we are at home. For many, those can be completely different people. This separation is what most of us do to survive day to day, being gay and/or other; we are no exception. Sometimes the different sides of us separate more and more, and we lose the sense of who we are. What I do is support clients in starting to bring those pieces back together to create a whole person.

PM: How do you go about doing that?

ZK: Through reflection, awareness, and action. While I work with clients on specific projects, we focus just as much on what’s happening on the inside and who they’re being about it. Many people concentrate on doing something in order to be something, trying to fix something they think is wrong or broken within them. In coaching I come at it in the other direction. It’s about being first. By recognizing you are whole, the doing comes naturally.

PM: I think I get it, but can you give me an example of how you’ve done this for yourself?

ZK: I grew up with a body image of myself being entirely too skinny, so I was always going to the gym, trying to put on weight and put on muscle to fix what I saw as wrong with me, chasing the proverbial unattainable carrot always held out in front of me. It drove me on but also [kept] me unhappy and unfulfilled. As long as I believed myself broken, it didn’t matter how many reps at the gym I lifted; they’d never be enough. It wasn’t until I began to address my own thoughts around my self-worth that I began to see changes. I connected my physical fitness goals with my overall health, ethics, and values. I’ve seen my dad deal with some serious health problems, and I didn’t want to go through that myself. Being vegan and my fitness journey are both a part of that.

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PM: I know it’s important to you, so could you talk more about your veganism?

ZK: It connects to so many things that are bigger than myself: the environment and climate change, world hunger, and animal suffering. I very much see veganism as an exercise in my personal integrity, connecting and bringing my intentions, words, and actions into alignment. I want to set an example that you can be healthy, fit, and even thrive on a vegan diet. Our diets are often just another example of our dissociation. We are disconnected from where our food comes from and the violence involved in producing it. Being vegan is more than just the action and choice of not consuming animals. It is also a synthesis of personal values and beliefs, which lead to those actions. On the other side, eating meat is also a choice, and one that is backed also by a certain set of values and beliefs, a belief system and ideology called “carnism.” By recognizing this, we can see that it’s not just “the way things are.” We can also begin to examine our actions and make empowered choices and changes rather than just being at the effect of the existing paradigm.

PM: That is important, like how “straight” didn’t exist until we defined “gay.” Final question: You’re goal-driven, so what’s next?

ZK: I have my life coaching. I have my personal training. I have my vegan lifestyle, and my acting as well. I want to bring them all together. Like I’ve been saying, it’s all about integration. I’m interested in traveling and giving talks as well as creating a plant-based, vegan fitness center, complete with workshops, classes, coaching, and training. I’m also currently working on an ensemble theatrical piece and a one-man show — a lot of exciting things coming up!

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The Boston Bruins announced Monday that veteran forward Simon Gagne will not return to the team this season due to personal reasons. – NHL